Sexy Again

Ok, I've always, ALWAYS said that I would "SO not be that woman who doesn't do her hair or makeup when she has a baby. I will still care very much about how I look!" Uh..... Ok, so maybe I didn't completely understand the reasons why. Seriously, what is it about having babies and us becoming blah? Is it because we are so tired that even so much as combing our hair seems like too much energy? I swore I would still fix my hair every day. That was five months, two weeks and 1 day ago. You know how many times I've REALLY fixed it? Uh....maybe twice. I seem to be the "pony tail girl" all the time now. That, and Caden is at the age where he will yank every last hair out of my head if I DON'T wear it back. OUCH!!

Why bother is what I usually think? Half the time I'm staying home most the day to work, and play with my son, so this is the conversation that goes through my mind..."Do I really need to shower today? Is it worth the energy and time? Did I shower yesterday? I don't remember.... ) :) Hehehehe... If I'm not going out in public, the answer is usually no, I don't. Though, I have learned lately that I feel alot better when I do anyway.

These rough-looking Mama days have been hard for me lately. Even though I've never been a HIGH-maintenance girl, I did care what I looked like...I loved dressing up and feeling good about myself.

Since Caden, splurging on silly things like nail polish and fancy hair products, seems irrelevant. Even when I do get a cash surge, which is pretty much NEVER, the money usually needs to go to something else, and that something else wears a size small diaper, eats 2-3 cans of baby food a day, one can of formula a week, a LOTS of baby wipes...sheeesh!!! :)

However, it is TIME...I have hit that point!!! I'm sick of my "blahness!" I feel it’s appropriate now, for my mother-like self, with my shorts & T-shirts, pony-tailed hair and bare face, to De-Frump or De-Slump.

It is time to make a change, to get back to that sexy girl who felt confident when she walked down the street, the one who wore heels even though they hurt and wore lipstick even though it never lasted long.

That's it. I'm bringing sexy back. As soon as that next burst of energy strikes. So look out world cause here I come!! Woo hoo!! :)

My Little Swan Diver!!!

Ok my little man!!!

You SCARED the LIFE out of me yesterday afternoon!!!! How many times do I need to tell you not to take after your Uncle Joey!!! So I prop you up on the sofa between pillows so that I can go out the back door and grab the food bowl to feed the puppies...... I'm away from you for what, 3.5 seconds? I start walking back through the door as I see you leaning forward as if contemplating what it would be like to be on the floor instead....and that is EXACTLY what you did!! I felt as if I was in one of those "slow motion" clips where something is happening and the other person is saying...."Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo" as they are trying to stop what is about to come about...... but of course it is always to late. And so was I. Off the couch you went, HEAD first, taking two pillows with you (thank GOD, since it cushioned your fall) and did like a summersault with a twist. I must say, if you were in baby olympic gymnastics you would have gotten a pretty great score for that one! I WAS FREAKING OUT!!!!! I almost got you, I was that close..... and when I came to you, you laid there for a second just looking stunned at what you just accomplished, and then you started crying. I know you didn't hurt yourself, thank God, thank God, thank God.....you just scared yourself. My heart was pounding out through my BRAIN, and I was just as much in shock as you I think. The moment I picked you up you stopped crying, but I feel like I was crying inside for hours later..... You SCARED ME!!! No more couch propping for you! I'm sticking to the floor from here on out. You've finally hit that point of no-return.... :) Thank you for not hurting yourself baby....I would be crying still!! No more stunts like that! God I love you........

Love, Your Mommy